disappointing conclusion

Observation: Everyday, despite my best wishes, I am forced to conclude that, owing to many factors, I am not a "fit" back in Morgantown.

I am inexplicable to most, even in a city like Los Angeles, and the miniscule population base in Morgantown, compared to where I and my work came of age, makes my ability to identify and share with a peer group a great strain.

The financial base is not here that I need, the arts community lacks the Bohemian element that nurtures my work and my natural shyness with women merely complicates matters.

I am an aberration, even my tendency to speak with eloquence - generating confusion, rumour and hostility.

Sigh.

I'm not giving up, yet...but I just had to take a reality check and smack myself a few times.